This Monday is Jacob’s 24th birthday, and the first of birthdays we’ve spent as a married couple. Last year I ended up with food poisoning on his day, so let’s hope for a better turn out this year.
We went to his PT picnic last night, the Avett Brothers’ concert, and today is the big surprise birthday gift! I may or may not be building this up to be way more thrilling than it is, but I’m excited. Just told him this morning what it is, so I can finally write it here. We are going zip-lining and rappelling in North Ga for 3 hours! I'll be sure to post photos.
The week has been exhausting. One day off work is great, but making up for what you’ve missed is not.
Jake and I have been talking about what I should do - What career God wants me to pursue. I have always been someone with a plan. Someone who writes every little detail on a post-it note, planner, and even journal. And it’s not because I’m forgetful. It’s a means of security.
That being said, my being unsure of where God will take me next doesn’t always sit well. I’m praying for peace and guidance and for him to be my confidence and security. The world tells me “How can you not know what you want to do? You were in college for four years!” But I have to see this time as an opportunity for God to move in great ways and for me to impact in any way. Jake reminded me that I have to give God room to work rather than formatting him into my plans.
Jacob, on the other hand, loves the unknown. Being secure usually means life isn’t very adventurous to him. Sometimes I get frustrated with his ability to handle life’s ups and downs so seamlessly, but now I’m finding myself thankful. Thankful that he can encourage me, prays for me, and empathizes with me. You know before being married that you are a great match and that God is the reason you are together, that he holds all things together. And once you experience marriage, you are continuously reminded of how each individual has been uniquely crafted not only for the other person, but for marriage -- for the challenges and joy that come with sharing life and doing life as one. God is so good. And he is growing us in ways we cannot understand at this moment.
"Faith is living in advance what we will only understand in reverse." - Wayne Corderio
Love,
The Stagnaros
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